It's my first night alone in the apartment. Mom and I bid each other a tearful farewell, and friends of the Wiederwohl's drove her to Casa for her midnight flight (as this family was already headed to the city, and Amy has been ill the last few days). It was a lonely feeling watching them drive away, knowing that I can't just pop on over to Mom and Dad's during a long weekend or for the holiday season. As much as it was so difficult to live 10 hours away from my parents, obviously this is so much harder. I will miss them very much. I had to remind myself on the elevator to my apartment tonight that, I am indeed 24, and that must mean I'm grown up--I can live alone for 2 weeks and be a teacher. :)
On the upside, the Wieds have been so generous to me. They let me hang with them at the studio this evening so I didn't have to spend the majority of the evening alone. What a gracious, giving family--so willing to share their time when they have so many errands, appointments, and family needs of their own.
Also, even in the half hour I've been home, I feel a bit of peace. Sure, it's frightening (and sure the revving engines outside at 10:30 are obnoxious), but I've been blessed by 3 postings on facebook:
1.) "Elroi. . . the God who sees me." (from Mary Deming--shout out to my girl in Maine!) How wonderful to remember that God sees me, even when I feel lonely and far away from everything that I know, that is comfortable, that I understand. He sees my fears, my failures, my triumphs, my tears (both happy & sad). . . He is the God who sees me.
2.) A verse posted by my dear friend Ariel--"Submit to God, and you will have peace; then things will go well for you. Listen to His instructions, and store them in your heart." Job 22:21-22. What a great reminder of the promises that God gives to us.
3.) The Psalm dad is planning to preach on soon--Psalm 139 (especially verses 9-10). "If I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." Once again, a blessing to know that even here, over the sea, so far from home, He is guiding me and holding me in His arms.
Love to you all! Miss you very much!
On the upside, the Wieds have been so generous to me. They let me hang with them at the studio this evening so I didn't have to spend the majority of the evening alone. What a gracious, giving family--so willing to share their time when they have so many errands, appointments, and family needs of their own.
Also, even in the half hour I've been home, I feel a bit of peace. Sure, it's frightening (and sure the revving engines outside at 10:30 are obnoxious), but I've been blessed by 3 postings on facebook:
1.) "Elroi. . . the God who sees me." (from Mary Deming--shout out to my girl in Maine!) How wonderful to remember that God sees me, even when I feel lonely and far away from everything that I know, that is comfortable, that I understand. He sees my fears, my failures, my triumphs, my tears (both happy & sad). . . He is the God who sees me.
2.) A verse posted by my dear friend Ariel--"Submit to God, and you will have peace; then things will go well for you. Listen to His instructions, and store them in your heart." Job 22:21-22. What a great reminder of the promises that God gives to us.
3.) The Psalm dad is planning to preach on soon--Psalm 139 (especially verses 9-10). "If I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." Once again, a blessing to know that even here, over the sea, so far from home, He is guiding me and holding me in His arms.
Love to you all! Miss you very much!
